Can’t things just fall into place? I’m battling my own demons (for lack of a better word). This month marks our 13th cycle. And boy has it been a very long, very rough ride. We’ve had 2 miscarriages in the past 6 months. Back to back. Lost one in September, and another in November. Got pregnant really fast after the first miscarriage.
I’ve been under the impression that I would have an easy time getting pregnant again. Well, not yet at least.
I have a form of the MTHFR gene mutation. Nothing too serious. My fertility doctor isn’t too worried. Will probably need to go on progesterone suppositories once I’m pregnant, and possibly need to take lovenox (or the other brand I can’t remember now) injections. Depending on some blood work results.
I’m really bummed out though. I didn’t think it would take me this long to get pregnant again. Next month (June) my baby would have been due. I could have sworn I would be pregnant by then (there’s still a chance, so fingers crossed!). Not to mention my sis is pregnant with twins (IVF). I’m completely happy for her and my BIL. Cannot wait to meet those little boogers. But it’s really hard seeing her belly grow, and hearing her talk for hours about her pregnancy… Knowing I’ve had a loss as well. *sigh* jealously is a bitch.
My ovulation is also 2 days late now. I’m totally stumped. My ovulation has been on target for the last year! Always on cd16 or cd17. Been peeing on OPKs for days now! I’m so stumped. I don’t get it. Maybe stress from work is delaying it. I hope I didn’t miss it! Pray that I get my positive opk tomorrow and can really get down on the baby making. And pray that in 2 weeks we will see 2 beautiful dark pink lines! Oh how I have been waiting to see those lines.
Just needed to vent. I’m worried. Stressed. Everything in between. And I know that isn’t healthy. And I’m trying to relax. Maybe it’s time to look up some yoga!
Baby dust and prayers would be much appreciated… And right back at all u moms and ttc-ers.
For the love of all things caffeinated and donuts… Please!